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Sometimes the radio's a splendid thing, and other times it just ruins splendid things...

I feel so lonely without pappa. I wasn't even given a chance to say goodbye. I don't want to talk about it now..its just too upsetting..I'm tired and upset. Thats a terrible combination. All I want to do is sleep and eat. But of course thats just crazy talk. I was put on a diet, which I loath. I'v already snuck a couple of candy bars into my room. I put em' where mamma wouldn't find them. Anyroad..I must get going. I have to go down to the studio. They're gonna tell me about a new picture I might be doing! Thats exciting! Well ta ta for now.

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cheerful cheerful
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Oh I'm soo Upset!! I hate it here because I feel so lonely, no one says whats on thier mind to your face, or in an obscure comment you have to pick through imagry for. No one says anything. This silence isnt beautiful, its terrifyingly painful. How come a child with monsters under their bed or in their closet gets a tuck in, a light turned on, a bit and reassurance, and all I get is silence...when I have the very same fear. I dont sleep anymore even when my eyes are closed for hours at a time. I'm always tired and the ones who are sleepless still dream.

Am I being over dramtic?

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aggravated aggravated
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I'm so tired...and would love to updat this journal...but I just haven't found much time for it. Its so upsetting. I have so much to talk about. I'm almost through with my first picture..I'm happy because its been a lot of work for me, but I am also rather sad because I just don't want this feeling to end. Well I have to get going. Mamma is calling me for supper. WE'RE HAVING STEAK TONIGHT!
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calm calm
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Merry Christmas Everyone
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Well this is my first entry and I haven't the slightest clue what to write about. I guess I could write about the picture I am currently working on...but I don't want to bore anyone. You all just have to watch it for yourselves. I can't sleep and yet I'm so exhausted. We worked rather hard today. I was just thinking to myself that being my age can be quite confusing. You are all twisted up. Sometimes you'd like to make mud-pies, or play with dolls, but think you're too old. At others, it would be fun to put on high heels and go dancing. Then you're ashamed, because you know you are not old enough. Oh, well, thirteen is a lot of fun, anyway. I've adopted it as my lucky number. There are about fifteen years that you can be young..All the rest, you are grown-up. I think you appreciate being grown-up much better, if you don't try to be that way too soon. Well I must go to bed. Even is i can't sleep, I'll just lie down on my bed...and hum myself to sleep. Goodnight.
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amused amused
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